Yesterday was...

My best day for a long long time. I needed to prove to myself that I can still do this and that is what I did. I did not snack, I drunk two litres of water, I stayed under points, hell I even managed to bank some and I had a walk as I walked to football (England under 21s played Ireland in Southampton). I'm feeling loads better for my good day and I am hoping today will be just as good.

I have been telling myself lately that this is too hard, that I can't do it, that I am hungry etc. Well they are just excuses and I am fed up of making excuses. I know I can do it and at the end of the day I either have two choices, success or failure. I can either put on weight (which I am capable of doing very quickly) or I can get to goal and feel so much better about myself. I know what I choose and it's not failure.

You see, I just needed to get tough with myself for a bit. I am glad I have

Vicky xx

Lent

Now I'm not overly religious but I am aware that tomorrow sees the start of Lent. I see this as a good time to give up something that is bad for me and has been causing me problems in my fight of the flag.

I've been struggling with snacks recently. I've been eating too many, i.e. too many packets of quavers, too many rich toffee bars, too many skinny cow ice creams etc. God it is no wonder I have put on weight (yes I had a sneak at the scales last night at meeting and it was not pleasant).

So from now until Easter not a snack is going to pass my lips. I will stick with breakfast, lunch and dinner and hope that makes a difference to me. I've got to stop making excuses and get on top of this.

I've also decided to try and give up alcohol but that could prove difficult...I really am going to try though.

Vicky xxx

I'm not weighing in this evening

To be honest, I have been bad this week and know that I'd have a big gain. For this reason, I am not weighing in this evening. I decided yesterday when I woke up today I would start again and that is exactly what I am going to do. I know I can do this so from today I am being really really and hope I can pull it back for next week.

I've been really struggling lately and I don't know why but I do know I need to rein it in as I really want to get to goal and I certainly do not want to put my weight back on again, ever!!! I think you'll be seeing me on 5+ again soon.

Vicky xx