Steve and I

Thank you for your lovely comments on my last entry. It is good to be back and I am getting back on track with my weightloss too. Today I have tracked and planned all my food and I am hoping that I'll find some energy and inspiration to go the gym after work tonight.

I have had another fantastic weekend, most of it spent with Steve. I caught the train straight to him after work on Friday (he lives near Bognor Regis) and stayed the night then on Saturday we just relaxed before coming back to Southampton and going to a friends party. He met lots of my friends on Saturday evening which was really nice and it was lovely that they just accepted him and he fitted in straight away. Then on Sunday we just nursed our hangovers before he went home mid afternoon as it was his nan's birthday.

I don't mind telling you all (and Steve if you are reading this) that I love him loads. I am very very very happy at the moment and he has captured my heart in such a big way. I can't imagine life without him at the moment and I hope I never do. We have so much in common and I am so glad I have a man who I can cuddle up to at night and actually sleep in his arms because that is my favourite thing in the world.

I've posted some pics of us at my friends party on Saturday night. I hope you like them. I realised when I saw them just how much he does really love me. You only have to look at the way he is looking at me etc to see that and it's the best feeling in the world ever.

Vicky xxx

Update

Hi everyone,

You have probably noticed that a lot of my posts from this year have been deleted. Please do not worry, there is no other reason for this than I don't want them here anymore for various reasons which I am about to share with you all.

As this blog is about my weightloss I bring you news on that first. I put a few pounds on with everything going on in my life but I've had a couple of good losses and am back on track now although still struggling. However, I realised a long time ago that I am much happier with myself these days and that the weight will come off one day so I don't worry about it that much anymore.

So, the reasons for deleting my posts then. Well, I've realised what an idiot I made of myself and what an idiot certain people made of me. My life was not a good place with Mikey passing away and struggling with WW and then I admit that Alan came along and hurt me at a time when I could not deal with it. I don't want to go into details of what happened with him but I used it as an excuse to go off the rails a bit and then I gave myself a bit of a talking too and pulled it back.

I'd also like to tell you I have a wonderful new man in my life. His name is Steve (hunni if you are reading this I love you spades - oh my god I'm learning to speak Steve already) and I won't bore you with all the details but 3 weeks and 3 days after we met I'm feeling things I never thought it was possible to feel and my heart does things it never did before.

Enough from me...I'll post again soon.

Vicky xxxx

Yesterday was...

My best day for a long long time. I needed to prove to myself that I can still do this and that is what I did. I did not snack, I drunk two litres of water, I stayed under points, hell I even managed to bank some and I had a walk as I walked to football (England under 21s played Ireland in Southampton). I'm feeling loads better for my good day and I am hoping today will be just as good.

I have been telling myself lately that this is too hard, that I can't do it, that I am hungry etc. Well they are just excuses and I am fed up of making excuses. I know I can do it and at the end of the day I either have two choices, success or failure. I can either put on weight (which I am capable of doing very quickly) or I can get to goal and feel so much better about myself. I know what I choose and it's not failure.

You see, I just needed to get tough with myself for a bit. I am glad I have

Vicky xx

Lent

Now I'm not overly religious but I am aware that tomorrow sees the start of Lent. I see this as a good time to give up something that is bad for me and has been causing me problems in my fight of the flag.

I've been struggling with snacks recently. I've been eating too many, i.e. too many packets of quavers, too many rich toffee bars, too many skinny cow ice creams etc. God it is no wonder I have put on weight (yes I had a sneak at the scales last night at meeting and it was not pleasant).

So from now until Easter not a snack is going to pass my lips. I will stick with breakfast, lunch and dinner and hope that makes a difference to me. I've got to stop making excuses and get on top of this.

I've also decided to try and give up alcohol but that could prove difficult...I really am going to try though.

Vicky xxx

I'm not weighing in this evening

To be honest, I have been bad this week and know that I'd have a big gain. For this reason, I am not weighing in this evening. I decided yesterday when I woke up today I would start again and that is exactly what I am going to do. I know I can do this so from today I am being really really and hope I can pull it back for next week.

I've been really struggling lately and I don't know why but I do know I need to rein it in as I really want to get to goal and I certainly do not want to put my weight back on again, ever!!! I think you'll be seeing me on 5+ again soon.

Vicky xx

My WI Result

I am totally gutted. I have been perfect this week. Done lots of exercise, drunk lots of water, eaten healthily and within points and guess what....

I STAYED THE SAME!!!

Not much more to say really. This is hard but I shall keep plodding along. It has to come off sooner or later doesn't it?

Vicky xxx

The Look

Tonight (Saturday) I went with my mother, stepfather and some friends to see a 70s glamrock style tribute band at our local club. If you read further down my blog you will see that I have seen them before and am a big fan of them. You can find out more on their website at www.lookglam.co.uk

My reasons for writing this entry are that I wore a dress this evening and it was the first time I had worn it. I brought it from Dorothy Perkins in the sales and was not sure if it suited me but judging by all the lovely comments I got this evening I must have looked ok. I've added a few of the pictures here. Please note, I was sober and did not have a drink all evening and yes I did take my shoes off to dance as I can dance better without heels on, weird I know but then I am weird.

Girls, I'll need some advice later so I'll post again soon.

Hope everyone is well.

Vicky xxx